We have never really taken a break before. I know you’re scared. I am scared. It’s the feeling inside of me that wants to hold you tight and make sure I am there to do that very thing. I get this feeling to hold you tight because I want to love you and to hold you to show I am here. I want to pick you up when you’re down. I want to hold you tight when you’re upset or crying. Everyone messes up in life but I messed up big time. I made things bad and it is my fault for everything. I promised you to get my grades up and I want to show you I can. I understand your reasoning for what’s happening. I know we both don’t like it but I will support you through anything. I understand that you’re mad. My heart will love you forever and won’t stop. I know what love is and I am glad I have found it. I am glad that I have love and I hope to keep it. I care about a lot of things. My family, my goals, what I want to be In The future. I do care about school and about walking a cross that stage and showing my family that I did it and I want to be up there with you so both of our family’s can see us. Together. I want to be a man that supports my family. Not someone that sits on the couch everyday. I want college. i want that one job that will make me happy but also pay good. I do want to see me coming home to you one day from work. I want to make something out of myself. I want to have my goals and have them accomplished before I am gone. I won’t stop. I know I’ve made a fool out of my self with the grades I have received. It is time for a change. I am not going to just say it. I am going to fix them but I am going to make sure I do it right and raise my grades percent by percent until my grades are where I like them. I am proud of everything you do whether it is for me or for a friend you make me smile on days that are tuff. I want to show you, my family, and everyone that I can do this that I can live a very successful life with the people around me and the people that are very close to me in my life.
I love you more then you could ever know and one day I hope I can show you. I know at times I am forgetful, annoying, and just sometimes a handful but I know you love me and will always. You’re an amazing girl and girlfriend and I hope to never lose you. You’re an amazing helper with your little brother or to people that need the help. You’re adorable, cute, and very beautiful in any outfit even in your pjs and relaxing. I love that we can talk to each other about anything when we want to. I love you with all my heart and I hope you know I will always have a spot in my heart for you and there won’t be a moment I am not thinking about you. You’re amazing and always will be.
We can act like kids together we can always be ourselves around each other. There’s nothing more that I would ever want then her. Spending as much time as I can with her is something I keep close to me. Long distance is hard you always want your other part of you right there with you even though it’s hard I’ll always no she’s there to care and to listen and to love. We can walk into a toy shop and just run around and look at all the toys. When summer comes I’d love to take so many pictures together and have a album just for us. Each picture with both of us in it. She makes me happy even when I am down there’s no one I’d rather want in my life then her. She completes it :)
I didn’t think it would snow but I am very glad it did, spending our first snow day together was great. And watching it through the window as it came down :) I hope that I can spend snow days like that with her for the rest of my life :) she looks so cute in my coat and throwing snowballs at each other, she’s my world and I never want to lose her and when we are married and have our own house we can do the same and watch the snow I love her so much and I know she’s very thankful and glad we are together and I am very glad and thankful for her, she makes me very happy and there’s no one I’d rather spend my life with then her and it will always be that way. I won’t ever let that change :)
My New Year’s Resolution (which will not come true, but I can hope!) is to live in this home